Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Splinter

A piece of wood caught me in the heel of my thumb a few days ago. Years ago, when I was a child, my dad would have gotten out his pocket knife and dug the splinter out as I shrieked in fear and uncertainty. Now, I am waiting for my body to push it out. Because it will. Foreign substance...it will get spit out of me at some point. I keep my eye on it...waiting.

Same thing goes for this love bug I caught. I am waiting for my soul to spit it out. It's been such a difficult journey. Yes, there are a good many things to have come from it. But, my efforts have gone unrewarded and that stinks. There's no other way to say it. In time, could my crush come around? Yes, I suppose so. But, it's hurting me and I have to decide when to stop that. When to get the pocket knife and dig that ache out of me.

Like the wood in my thumb, I wait for it to be purged by natural instincts. And maybe that will happen. I know the splinter will leave my thumb, because I have experienced this before. And I know that the infatuation will fade. Patiently, I look for progress in that direction. But, it seems like the more I watch, the more the piece of wood settles in-no longer puckered red, but seeming to be a part of me. Same as the crazy infatuation that travels each day with me. Not boiling over, and yet never steaming away to thin air.

I'm learning to live with both of them in the interim. Or I think I must be. Sometimes it feels like I'm just breathing through it. And maybe that's the best I can hope for at the moment.

4 comments:

wednesday said...

We used to put a piece of bacon fat on a band-aid and put that over the splinter. It would draw it out. (Yes, I am country as fatback and cornbread)

Also, hard to be sad when you're eating bacon.

k said...

YOu made me laugh! BAcon is the most luscious thing, right? It's crazy. Thanks for the tip!

Michael said...

Indeed. Bacon solves everything. And, if bacon happens not to solve it-hey, at least you have some bacon.

Obsessive Foodie or Food Addict....You Decide said...

My mom used a hot needle to retrieve splinters........wrapping your body in bacon sounds much better tho.

ehh, after it gets wet a couple of times in the shower it will slide right out of the soft skin...or could stay in, get infected, and give you sepsis, in which case, you would end up in the hospital for weeks on end fighting an infection from a pesky lil' splinter......eeeeck, bacon or tweezers, bacon or tweezers....DO SOMETHING QUICK!