Monday, May 12, 2008


I'm having a pretty bad day today, so I go around reading about all these people who call themselves fabulous and I wonder how in the hell do they get to that place? Is it the "say it over and over again until it becomes your truth" method? I'm working with that, but I gotta say that I get to a nice plateau and then somebody slaps me upside the head and I become just a bit frustrated again. It's a mindset...I know, and I have to work at it. But, do all those other people get it naturally? Because that's just not fair.

Ten Reasons Why I am unable to be Fabulous today:

1. Dog - Crate (Again)
2. Too windy to ride bike.
3. Decided to make myself run, but walkman (yes, I am old school) refused to play through and kept skipping, so that I was so angry I threw it into the woods and then spent 10 minutes trying to find it again.
4. Helped other people with projects at work today and GOT NONE OF MY OWN WORK DONE!
5. I've spent SOOOOOOO many hours listening to my friend go on about his relationship, but will he go ahead and get the scoop on mechanic boy for me...NOOOOOOOO, no time for it. Sometimes friends SUCK.
6. They canceled my new favorite show, October Road.
7. It's cold...not breezy, not spring cool but it's supposed to be in the 30's tonight.
8. I cannot afford to be a world traveller, unless I join the carnival - which as everyone says, is a gritty bad idea.
9. The yellow cat is crazed today and attacks ALL of us as soon as we step out the door. I guess it's the wind, or he's lost the few marbles he was in possession of.
10. No matter how much I tell myself it's true, I don't think I can ever be as fabulous as everyone else. And that's so unfair.

I promised myself as I ran down the dirt road that I would not write until I came into a better state of mind. But, to be honest, my mood has improved dramatically in the past hour. Yeah, really.


Obsessive Foodie or Food Addict....You Decide said...

Kind of like Kimora Lee Simmons in Fabulosity.......being fabulous is has to be LOL.

fashionaddict said...

Who's to say these people truly feel "fabulous"? Are you feeling better yet?

Michael said...

I still think you're fabulous.

The whole mantra/The Secret crowd has always bothered me a little bit. Even if Manny Ramirez and Scott Adams believe in it.

The dark side is that the counter argument is, if you don't get what you want, well, you didn't want it bad enough.

That's a bunch of malarkey. Sometimes you don't get what you want, or what you deserve, just because life sucks.

k said...

Obsessed - I'm sure it's totally overrated. I mean, it has to be. Same as being brilliant or emaciated or hysterical. There are probably times when you just don't know, really want to eat or find yourself unfunny and then you would be disappointing so many people. Being plain has it's advantages.

Fashion - It's a new day, so it has all the potential of being better. Thanks for asking.

Michael - Thanks, you guys are fabulous too. I think the universe makes a lot of decisions for or against you all the time, and therefore no matter how badly you want something, you may not be the person to get it. Sure, I can think that something in my aura is in disagreement with the desire and therefore it's not happening, but if I can't control my aura...then it is absolutely the universe's fault. :)

As always, thanks for writing to me, it feels good to see other people passing through and handing out good vibrations when you are being your worst self. :)

Obsessive Foodie or Food Addict....You Decide said...

Also, who is to say WHO is fabulous anyway. I might think someone is fabulous and you might think they are a dik. Perhaps in my own mind, I think I am fabulous, but everyone else thinks I am an obnoxious beotch. If you got everything you wanted life would be boring....if you start out fabulous where do you go after that??? Nothing to strive and fight for and that isn't much fun. I will take being the underdog anyday and fighting tooth and nail to get what I is much more satisfying in the end and ALWAYS makes for a much better story. Plus, everyone always roots for the underdog (I think).

k said...

Obsessed - good point, you fabulous girl!

Paola Zakimi said...

hi there, doll I'm Fabulosa!!!, jajaja i agree with Obsessive, K girl, thanks for take a look at my blog, its ok with you, could I link you, sorry my english...again!

k said...

Paola - Hi! YOu may certainly "link me"...I"d love to be attached to a site as lovely as yours. I have to save up and buy some of your artwork one of these days. It feels so dreamy and beautiful.