Thursday, April 10, 2008

Too much Austen

I believe in love.



I'm not sure why. It's never shown me much.

The hours of my life pass and pass and pass, and love laughs from the box seats. It tickles the air around me, and makes passage of my auditory canal. But, it doesn't confront me or pin me in a corner to ask why I avoid it. To question the content of my soul. To point out the tiny agonies of being missed by such a rapturous opportunity.

It lies on the fringes of me. And at times I feel to proud to summon it, or offer it my hand. Just the reason, love ponders, to leave me alone. Pride is not love, is useless emotion...like fear, which I feel is the real instigator when it comes to my shun.

At an impasse maybe, we two. And I wager that love will win. Because it has before. There are stories of it. I have read them, three or four.

And although I am wary of it. A certain folly feels almost ticklish. Like the lightest exhalation on the dandelion petal, or the whisper of a beetle's flight home. It is tantalizing...

this thought of losing.

5 comments:

Obsessive Foodie or Food Addict....You Decide said...

Poem? Your own thoughts? A song? whatever it was is pretty!

I love beetles btw....I don't know why, I just do. I love ladybird beetles and I love the word beetle. I should have named one of my cats beetle!

k said...

My own thoughts would be the category. Thanks.
There is something about beetles. Remember a couple years ago when it was all the rage to wear a live bug as a brooch or pin? I thought it was a bit cruel, but I guess it shows that we aren't the only ones who enjoy them.

Leslie Shelor said...

I am very, very thankful that I missed the live-bug-as-pin craze. Lovely thoughts!

Michael said...

As Sir Elton John once sung,

"I believe in love/
It's all we've got."

I don't want to believe in love. I want to believe life can be dissected, pinned down, and explicated to several significant decimal places. I want life to be evidence based and follow the rules.

I believe in love, though, despite my better judgement and in spite of abundant evidence to the contrary. It's the thing coming between me and driving into a bridge abuttment.

k said...

Michael,
Thank God for it then! :)Drive safely.